I can't breathe without you....

I know I’ve been off the grid of tumblr for a little bit. I never go on my computer and I don’t particularly enjoy the tumblr app for the iPhone. But yet here I am at 230 in the bloody morning drinking a beer and wondering about my love life.

See there’s this boy. He really is great. We have so much in common and we’re both on the same page on everything. We like each other, quite open about it, and it rules. But something changed, he still likes me but I feel like he’s pulled back. I’m not the type of person that will ask anyone more than what they’re willing to give, so I give him space and time. We’re cool but I feel like he’s still holding back. Part of me wants to go back to my old ways and say “fuck him.” Then the other part, which is much more loud than the other wants to go to him and say “I would never hurt you. Don’t be scared. I gotchu.”
But slowly I’m learning that not everything is as black and white as k see it. Slowly, bigger parts of gray matter appears and it’s not as simple as I had once previously thought
It was. I get that we are dozens of states and thousands of miles apart. I’m willing to make this happen and make you a legend on my map.

Don’t be scared, I’m witchu. I’m here. I’m not leaving.

It’s weird to think that someone so far can have such a place in my heart. I smile super big every time you’re brought up or when you call or when you text even if it’s random ass pictures.

You just laugh at me when I have a stank as attitude, which pisses me off
to no end, but yet you still manage to make me laugh.

I don’t laugh at you when you rap or tell me about your dreams and future plans. You’re a smart guy when you apply yourself. I don’t get mad at you for keeping me awake when you do acid. I just laugh at you because u cray.

My point is, after all of this, is that you should get rid if your gray areas or concerns. You mean a great deal to me. I would never play you out or make you feel less than what you are. Distance is only temporary. I’m willing to make this work if you are.